Is my dream finally coming true?

Is it real?

I got the keys today to the future TeaRoom. Even when I typed this, it seemed so unreal and scary too. It is not a time for hesitation and questioning of ability, but I will be so amazed if this works out as (or better than!) I have always dreamt of.

Even MFG said he can't wait... well, I can't wait to see him more, hopefully everyday - that will be double dream come true. But since it sounded too good to be true, it is most probably not true.

Perhaps one dream at a time. I am feeling super lucky and blessed to have great partners around. If not for them, this cannot happen and it is not because I haven't the courage to do it, but will be because I cannot afford it. What have I done to deserve this? I must do more for others, I promised myself.

I missed my guinea pig tonight, I wish I can tell her that TeaRoom is finally going to be up. I missed mum tonight, I wish I can tell her that I am really thrilled about getting TeaRoom started. But they are both so far away from me in different ways...

It's finally happening!

I started the TeaRoom brand name in year 2007 and was selling cakes before that. Started baking? That was when I was in primary school, my current moist chocolate cake was "founded" when I was in high school junior middle 3... I have been wanting to start TeaRoom for ages, at one point I got really frustrated that things were not working out.

After a while, I learnt to be patient and trust that good things happen to those who waits. We registered Tearoom Sdn Bhd more than a year ago and since aggressively looking for a suitable place. I won't say that the one we have booked is the best place, it might not even be termed as ideal, but it is good enough and I think is a good start - it's a start.

So finally, it's going to happen in June, a quiet opening of TeaRoom first outlet! I am excited of course but worried also that things might not fall into places. Well I guess we just have to constantly pick up pieces and try to make ends meet. Whoever said it is going to be easy? No one every told me that, but everyone told me to have faith, and faith I should have.

MFG asked me out for dinner last week. I would love to say that things are finally happening with him too, but sigh. He was organising a dinner with some friends and he asked me to join. But good enough to be in his circle of friends I supposed - those were all his friends that I got to know lately through him. It was kind of nice to be at his side although no string attached whatsoever. You know I always like someone taking care of me at the dining table, dishing food into my plate - I meant when it is someone I like and not the waiter. So I got that "service" the whole night, although I was not the only one he was dishing food for haha... I can sometimes make things sound rather romantic depending on the way I write it :p He is so really caring and I still like him so so much...

He is the kind of guy who doesn't really put ego first and he is always there for his friends. He is not afraid of being bullied, actually he doesn't see it that way. Everyone loves him. And so I went into one of my Ally Mcbel fantasies and imaging him telling me that he is getting married, to another girl. I remember doing that heart test some months ago... Last week was a busy week and I actually did not find myself thinking about MFG so much. I was beginning to miss him and thought I will ask him out for lunch this week. And that was when I got his message for the dinner gathering...

What was the result of my heart test? No cold sweat this time, heart felt okay although I will still not attend the wedding and no wedding cake from me, sorry. Maybe time is really the essence. I feel kind of so "sayang" to just let him "go"...