Need more work

This month, 2 years ago, I was in HK and got my new gadget. So many has changed yet so many things remained the same. Many things that I once feared and wanted to find an easy way out then but now I feel like certain things I feared may just lead to more success; most of the time, we need to go the hard way. I am surprisingly looking forward to longer business hours, more work and busier schedule.

Still struggling but lets see if I can pull through after another 6 months. Otherwise, perhaps I cannot survive any longer anyways.

Also discovered that people I once adored so much and so wanted to speak to actually annoys me much. Have I changed so much or... I was just blind then. Haha...

Where do I go?

It does seem like I am doing a half yearly blogging over here. Needless to mention, it has been really hectic. Last week was really hectic though I have came across more tiring weeks. Something I noted, however, was that I have particularly missed MFG during the past whole week. It has been kind of calmer for a long while till lately again. (I just read my last post and indeed I felt milder towards this). Just found from another friend that he was overseas, was that the reason I missed him especially more? He has been further away...

Like I have just told another girl friend of mine (I cannot remember all those nicknames I gave to my blog characters!) that the MFG chapter is a no ending story. There will be an end but there will not be a fruitful one. Except for, of course, the great friendship between us.

Anyways, the cake biz was so bad that I have decided that I would want to go back to work, perhaps 5 half days and then work here half day, that was also when the cafe was really so quiet when I made that decision. No, it didn't happen yet because I was not actively searching for a job and I got really busy last week.

Going to the extreme will be to close down this business, which will be such a waste but I have no choice because I need income to prevent my status to becoming "bankrupt". As for now, I am staying and eating for free supported by MC, how grateful I am... but it cannot be for long, besides free lodging there has also been a lot of money borrowed. It is really bad.

I wonder if I can talk about something more cheerful the next time I blog...

How are you feeling?

It has been more than half a year since I last blogged. Tearoom has taken over my life and it is not always what I feel that I wanted. But there is no such thing as a full fledged, smoothly operating Tearoom on day one... I have been through really rough time, not really with starting up and operating Tearoom, but more of my personal life especially the financial bit. I am still having financial problems only taking a break last 2 months because I was blessed with a great boss from my project consulting job and to give up my house, I gain some extra income.

But not for long, I am not sure how I am able to pull through for next month, actually, this coming month end.

Maybe if I open all my ang pows I will have enough money to pay all my bills? Yes, still single and still the same MFG. But there has been signs that Time has diluted the feelings, and I am sure MFG will be so happy and relieved to know, that is IF he knows that I still have strong feelings towards him. No one else has appeared in my life otherwise, is it a sign? Or it simply means that I have no life lately. I cannot recall the date of his birthday though, perhaps that's a sign too? Or it simply means that I am not organized and have no time for friends lately.

Which ever way, I hope to improve the quality of my life this year. Have now settled in comfortably in my sis house and feel really like home. So blessed. It's strange but home is a feeling and not a place that was why I have not been feeling like home recently until I moved in here. It's also more comfortable working figurines as well as paper work on this work desk I am occupying now.

Perhaps some items need to be taken out from the dream list, but whether there is any "replacement dream" or just work on the current dream is what I hesitate to decide.

Sometimes you take so much time wishing for something, it might take you equally long time to "unwish" them...