Happy new year!

Year 2010.

Yeah, half an hour away and it's all around, everyone is talking about last year's (this year) achievements and coming year's resolutions... I guess everyone needs a target to work on. Mine remains as my TeaRoom and MFG dreams. Of course the on-going, every year the same little targets on being better in all aspects of life and personal attributes...

My target last year for TeaRoom was December 2009, time flies and it didn't happen. What is the new date? I cannot begin to tell... I will, however, continue to work on it. Keep the orders coming!

As for work, it has been erm, I cannot find a word to describe. Tough? Not really, there has not been difficult tasks, sometimes I get a bit bored even. However, enjoyable would not be a word I'd use to describe work. In fact, I drag going to work everyday, don't feel like going to work. But hey! What do I know? One year has passed already, I just need to persevere for a little longer. I guess the only unbearable thing is people matter in the office. Lets hope people change, for better.

MFG case... no ending story for this year. Not even close. Suffice to say that I like him more by the day, but also occasionally got tired of him. Perhaps it takes time, more time. Or perhaps it's not time. Lets rest the case for new year celebration.

Joyous of all was the arrival of my little cutie niece. She's such a bundle of comfort, by just cuddling her in your arms, you will feel that all your worries and stress have been gotten rid of. May she grow up happily with loads of love.

Wishing all of us a better year ahead. :)

Perhaps

I am feeling a bit sick. Have been feeling a bit sick since this morning. I would blame it to the poor air quality in the office, at my workstation in particular due to my neighbour polluting the air.

So feeling a bit vulnerable and sentimental. I felt like putting some facebook status that says...

"There may be this one that when you will tell me that you feel the same towards me too... but will I still feel the same when this one day finally arrives?"

Spring Cleaning the Dreams

I've cleaned up my table at work. Not cleaned up, CLEANED up, but cleared a lot of stuff from the table and it's looking less congested and fresher. I will put a reminder to continue with the spring cleaning of the workstation this week, before the year ends. I wasn't the only one who did that, in fact, some of my colleagues did a much better job than me in terms of spring cleaning.

It's year end and people are starting to talk about 2010 new year resolutions... I had a few but I don't know if I achieved them because I can't even remember what was my 2009 resolutions. However, I remember two of my biggest dreams, which none has come true this year. Like LGM said, it takes time for dreams to come true.

Of course there are small little dreams here and there and some little dreams have come true now and then. For example my recent Christmas present :).

I've cleaned out quite a lot of them and binned them during spring cleaning, among them were bonus, promotion, Europe trip... I plan to keep my TeaRoom and MFG dream for now.

There have also been some cleaning of bad karma recently. The robbery case, I believe, was a form of getting rid of some bad karma, the Chinese saying "lose some money to avoid disasters" applies. My recent fall at my very own front door, I also believe, was a form of getting rid of yet more bad karma. In both cases, there were some degree of suffering but it's very mild compared with many other tragedy happening around the world everyday.

Looking forward to a better year ahead. Happy new year to all in advance.

Tired of waiting

It's happening again lately. When the mind is not strong enough, the body says I should just give up and settle with second best, or something else, or just forget about the whole thing.

For example, supposedly registering of company should only take like about a week, but it must have been a month, or more actually. I can wait more, or I can do it myself. Scouting of shop location seems to be an unheard story from the other end. I can wait but I've gotten another friend to help out. Of late, I feel that it is better to start off with a modest small little outlet, build a base and then only expand. Meanwhile, it will be fine to just wait for the ideal location for TeaRoom. Otherwise, I will have to just settle with my current job with annoying colleagues, and boss, or look for another job.

It is a strange feeling. The more I see mfg, the more I feel the distance. It is hard to explain or pinpoint what is wrong but it just didn't feel right most of the time. For example, we chat on line everyday but the conversations encompass daily gossips generally; we hug each other every time we meet but sometimes I get the half hug; goodbye kisses are air kisses no difference from kisses for other friends; at the end of his occasion long glance, there was the non magical friendly smile.

I wish I can see the end of the road, so that I can decide now whether to walk this path.

Terrified!

House got robbed last Friday at 10.15am, that was half an hour after I left the house. I am feeling very bad because most probably if I lock the doors more and properly, the robbers wouldn't have been able to get in. Sigh... luckily mum and sis were okay. Don't feel like repeating the story but it's very terriying knowing that there are cases of robberies which are much much more serious as in the victims got tied up, beaten up etc... I can imagine how mum and sis must be feeling now.

Lets put that behind and be more careful from now.

Suddenly feeling very tired... another long week ahead.

When?

It has been so long since I didn't blog (in here)? There have been so much in my mind and I simply have too much story to tell but I can't really remember them now.

I am actually really tired at work. I don't know my fixed job tasks. I do know what I have to do tomorrow, or next week, but beyond that I won't be sure if the tasks will change. Today I have been demanded by the big boss to answer about inventory, when I said I do not know, I have been blamed for not being up to date with it. "Do I have to tell you everything?" was what the big boss told me, he asked why was it not done. "How come you know how to go home, or when to eat when I didn't have to tell you?" he told the whole room of people this. Geezzz.... maybe because my mother has taught me how to eat and told me that I must eat in order to live? And I was told and given my house address that's why I knew how to get home?

There was also a major drama about who should do what task, and how should certain procedures be implemented, and why this certain person has done things this or that way... so messy.

Many people want to leave the company already. Why are they (we) still here? We haven't got a job yet okay, otherwise we will be gone, so don't come and ask us why we are still here, and say something like "don't tell me all of you are gone when I'm back okay". Fine, we won't tell you. Any how, we won't be gone by the time you come back after your two weeks holiday because even if we resigned yesterday, we will still be serving our notice by the time you come back.

Why am I still here? Please... let me get hold of the location for TeaRoom soon.