It's great to still be receiving birthday presents so long after my birthday. And this particular set of present was being referred to by him as the "creme de la creme" set. To me, this is the most "luxury" birthday present I've received so far.
If I had received this present from him say five years ago, I would be at cloud 9. Okay, I'm still extremely delighted when I received the present last night, you should see my expression - grinning from ear to ear. But what I meant is the very special feelings I would have experienced if he were to give me this present five years ago. As a matter of fact, I would be floating even to get a phone call from him five years ago. It used to make my heart rate soar by just calling him.
I used to think that I was extremely crazy for him. I would do anything in order for him to reciprocate my feelings. Once upon a time, I thought I would change myself to fit into his criteria; I would swallow my pride and annoyance just to show him how patience and genuine I was towards making that relationship work. Even though I knew that his character really wouldn't please me and the chemical reaction was just going to be very adverse.
Perhaps he later had better, more special feelings for me, but I don't feel the same anymore now. Oh, how sure I was then that my feelings would never change.
What went wrong?
Realization? That tolerating will not work?
Timing? The right feelings but wrong time?
I consider myself lucky. Because he's still a good friend. Because I am still free and very much entitled to be crazy over MFG.
Some origami papers which looks so much like fabric, looking very delicate. MC gave these to Aunt, not sure if she will use them - they are too pretty, just feel like framing them up!
