Another colleague of mine resigned.
That made two of them leaving this month. Is there something wrong with the company somehow? One would guess so... I've been with the company for 2 years now. It seems less promising by the day. But unlike my colleagues, I'm not ready yet.
I came to know that there are certain people who actually live in their dreams. I'm not talking about dreams as in a goal you wanted to achieve, but dreams as in lies that you told and believe that it is reality. It's like living in the dream world. But it does seem to me that this person is simply telling lies everyday, breaking promises, over promising, talking bad about others... This is the typical bad guy in those dramas. I wish hard to be away from this person soon. Please, please, please...
Ohh... I just watched the Princess and the Frog (did I get the movie title right?) cartoon just now. And when the girl wish upon the star, that was what she said "please, please, please...". And of course her wish came true! But be careful what you wish for as usual, especially when you wish for a "prince". :)
Besides being a very entertaining cartoon, one might learn the difference between what you want and what you need.
I think I know what I want, but... What is it that I need?
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I can feel it...
...the pain in my butt.
Made a point to sleep early last night aiming to go for the 7.15 RPM at MML. I mean AM! And I MADE IT!!
My lifestyle has changed quite a bit lately. When Wookie asked me if I've terminated my gym membership because he hasn't seen me for a while, I felt like dejavu - I remember someone (or some few) asking me that before.
No lah, didn't terminate membership. In fact, "upgraded" to the platinum membership which is good news for my gym bag because now I don't have to stuff things in to make space for bath and face towels.
So, most of you haven't seen me at gym because I've been working out in the morning and reserving the evenings for cake orders. Yeah, cake orders are more consistent now, but unfortunately not big enough for me to retire and bake full time at home. Still need that extra source of revenue from a store front set-up. One day...
As for working out in the morning. Of course it gives me much more time in the evening to be at home. Since after the robbery case, mum is still paranoid and she is more comforted when I reach home early. MC also mentioned yesterday that she sees me more now a days.
The drawback for morning workout, however, is that I won't be joining classes - right until this morning. If I worked late for the cake orders, I normally do need that extra half hour of sleep. But when times like today where I managed to sleep early the night before, I could wake up half and hour earlier to go to gym. And since the class at MML was 7.15am instead of 7.00am, I have more time to get there.
As for work, I'm still there; as for cafe, I'm still not there. And I can so feel the tiredness, body screaming for me to take a break.
I must apply annual leave tomorrow for CNY baking.
Made a point to sleep early last night aiming to go for the 7.15 RPM at MML. I mean AM! And I MADE IT!!
My lifestyle has changed quite a bit lately. When Wookie asked me if I've terminated my gym membership because he hasn't seen me for a while, I felt like dejavu - I remember someone (or some few) asking me that before.
No lah, didn't terminate membership. In fact, "upgraded" to the platinum membership which is good news for my gym bag because now I don't have to stuff things in to make space for bath and face towels.
So, most of you haven't seen me at gym because I've been working out in the morning and reserving the evenings for cake orders. Yeah, cake orders are more consistent now, but unfortunately not big enough for me to retire and bake full time at home. Still need that extra source of revenue from a store front set-up. One day...
As for working out in the morning. Of course it gives me much more time in the evening to be at home. Since after the robbery case, mum is still paranoid and she is more comforted when I reach home early. MC also mentioned yesterday that she sees me more now a days.
The drawback for morning workout, however, is that I won't be joining classes - right until this morning. If I worked late for the cake orders, I normally do need that extra half hour of sleep. But when times like today where I managed to sleep early the night before, I could wake up half and hour earlier to go to gym. And since the class at MML was 7.15am instead of 7.00am, I have more time to get there.
As for work, I'm still there; as for cafe, I'm still not there. And I can so feel the tiredness, body screaming for me to take a break.
I must apply annual leave tomorrow for CNY baking.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Comfort
It has been peaceful this week.
Beginning of the year, almost everyone is still counting the days into year 2010. I think time suddenly passes very slowly. It's only the 8th day of the year and I'm already feeling very tired. I have not been having good appetite lately as well. It's like I'm the bunny in cheap battery, my energy cannot be summoned as my heart wishes.
However, the comforting part was I completed all tasks required by boss before he left for his business trip, no major drama other than the little episode where I disagree with some term definition. But of course the episode ended by him telling me I'm not listening and that I don't understand, and I am not looking at it in the right context.
Okay, fine. I'm not bothered actually because I have asked a few people and I've done my research and I know I am right. :)
It is also a comfort to be able to hug a cuddly little baby everyday after a long day at work. Haha... this sounds more like MC's script, but hey, Ah Yi feels the same too.
Having to chat with MFG on line everyday has been a comfort too, although one of the days we only exchanged "morning" and later "nite nite", there were also days when I guess MFG was quite free in terms of work and thoughts where he was extra chatty. Good enough to make me feel that he's just there beside me everyday.
There has not been much deliverable, but a peaceful week to be thankful about.
Beginning of the year, almost everyone is still counting the days into year 2010. I think time suddenly passes very slowly. It's only the 8th day of the year and I'm already feeling very tired. I have not been having good appetite lately as well. It's like I'm the bunny in cheap battery, my energy cannot be summoned as my heart wishes.
However, the comforting part was I completed all tasks required by boss before he left for his business trip, no major drama other than the little episode where I disagree with some term definition. But of course the episode ended by him telling me I'm not listening and that I don't understand, and I am not looking at it in the right context.
Okay, fine. I'm not bothered actually because I have asked a few people and I've done my research and I know I am right. :)
It is also a comfort to be able to hug a cuddly little baby everyday after a long day at work. Haha... this sounds more like MC's script, but hey, Ah Yi feels the same too.
Having to chat with MFG on line everyday has been a comfort too, although one of the days we only exchanged "morning" and later "nite nite", there were also days when I guess MFG was quite free in terms of work and thoughts where he was extra chatty. Good enough to make me feel that he's just there beside me everyday.
There has not been much deliverable, but a peaceful week to be thankful about.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Listening
Be yourself.
I wonder to what extend can we do that. Notice that sometimes our emotions and decisions are influenced by daily happenings and people around us? And of course we appreciate our friends who are always around to listen, talk to us, give some advice and help us make certain decisions. But then again there are also certain occasions when we disagree with what our friends told us, or we don't know where they are coming from.
Our advisers might go "I know that it hurts by knowing the truth" or "I know it's painful to know, but I need to tell you...". Or sometimes certain friends are being too straight forward and less tactful, like it's just him/ her being him/ her... Well, it certainly is painful to the ear if not to the heart when you find that friends, instead of understanding you, are being extremely not supportive.
Then come the time when you think to yourself "should I still be myself?" or "shall I just trust myself?"
I think the answer should always be "yes". You see, really, we know ourselves the best. Though we know we are stubborn, but deep down, we are always logical when it comes to critical decisions. Just like you will surely let go of the match when the fire reaches your fingers because you do not want yourself to be hurt.
Besides, advisers sometimes based their advice from what we told them. Especially when it comes to popular topic of men (or women), if our friends have not met this person in question, how would he/ she be able to tell you what's going on or whether you should adapt Plan A or B or C? If you paint a positive picture and feedback on all the potential episodes, of course your friends will say "you go gal!". But whereas when you are being skeptical yourself, or trying not to sound too silly by going through all those little (perceived) sweet moments too much, how would they not tell you that things are not looking good?
As I stand by my theory, I would also like to be a more cheerful character for my friends.
When you are tired of waiting, I'll be there to cheer you on, "just a little bit more", or I'll ask you "is there something else you need to do (is there someone else you want to see)?, if not might as well just hang onto it".
When you are not sure if you are reading the "signs" correctly, I'll tell you to just be positive, so long as we don't loose our dignity, why not just react positively as well?
But when you are tired of crying, heart broken or not able to read any positive signs at all, I'll tell you to just forget about it, and I'll lend you my shoulder if you need one to cry on...
I wonder to what extend can we do that. Notice that sometimes our emotions and decisions are influenced by daily happenings and people around us? And of course we appreciate our friends who are always around to listen, talk to us, give some advice and help us make certain decisions. But then again there are also certain occasions when we disagree with what our friends told us, or we don't know where they are coming from.
Our advisers might go "I know that it hurts by knowing the truth" or "I know it's painful to know, but I need to tell you...". Or sometimes certain friends are being too straight forward and less tactful, like it's just him/ her being him/ her... Well, it certainly is painful to the ear if not to the heart when you find that friends, instead of understanding you, are being extremely not supportive.
Then come the time when you think to yourself "should I still be myself?" or "shall I just trust myself?"
I think the answer should always be "yes". You see, really, we know ourselves the best. Though we know we are stubborn, but deep down, we are always logical when it comes to critical decisions. Just like you will surely let go of the match when the fire reaches your fingers because you do not want yourself to be hurt.
Besides, advisers sometimes based their advice from what we told them. Especially when it comes to popular topic of men (or women), if our friends have not met this person in question, how would he/ she be able to tell you what's going on or whether you should adapt Plan A or B or C? If you paint a positive picture and feedback on all the potential episodes, of course your friends will say "you go gal!". But whereas when you are being skeptical yourself, or trying not to sound too silly by going through all those little (perceived) sweet moments too much, how would they not tell you that things are not looking good?
As I stand by my theory, I would also like to be a more cheerful character for my friends.
When you are tired of waiting, I'll be there to cheer you on, "just a little bit more", or I'll ask you "is there something else you need to do (is there someone else you want to see)?, if not might as well just hang onto it".
When you are not sure if you are reading the "signs" correctly, I'll tell you to just be positive, so long as we don't loose our dignity, why not just react positively as well?
But when you are tired of crying, heart broken or not able to read any positive signs at all, I'll tell you to just forget about it, and I'll lend you my shoulder if you need one to cry on...
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Happy new year!
Year 2010.
Yeah, half an hour away and it's all around, everyone is talking about last year's (this year) achievements and coming year's resolutions... I guess everyone needs a target to work on. Mine remains as my TeaRoom and MFG dreams. Of course the on-going, every year the same little targets on being better in all aspects of life and personal attributes...
My target last year for TeaRoom was December 2009, time flies and it didn't happen. What is the new date? I cannot begin to tell... I will, however, continue to work on it. Keep the orders coming!
As for work, it has been erm, I cannot find a word to describe. Tough? Not really, there has not been difficult tasks, sometimes I get a bit bored even. However, enjoyable would not be a word I'd use to describe work. In fact, I drag going to work everyday, don't feel like going to work. But hey! What do I know? One year has passed already, I just need to persevere for a little longer. I guess the only unbearable thing is people matter in the office. Lets hope people change, for better.
MFG case... no ending story for this year. Not even close. Suffice to say that I like him more by the day, but also occasionally got tired of him. Perhaps it takes time, more time. Or perhaps it's not time. Lets rest the case for new year celebration.
Joyous of all was the arrival of my little cutie niece. She's such a bundle of comfort, by just cuddling her in your arms, you will feel that all your worries and stress have been gotten rid of. May she grow up happily with loads of love.
Wishing all of us a better year ahead. :)
Yeah, half an hour away and it's all around, everyone is talking about last year's (this year) achievements and coming year's resolutions... I guess everyone needs a target to work on. Mine remains as my TeaRoom and MFG dreams. Of course the on-going, every year the same little targets on being better in all aspects of life and personal attributes...
My target last year for TeaRoom was December 2009, time flies and it didn't happen. What is the new date? I cannot begin to tell... I will, however, continue to work on it. Keep the orders coming!
As for work, it has been erm, I cannot find a word to describe. Tough? Not really, there has not been difficult tasks, sometimes I get a bit bored even. However, enjoyable would not be a word I'd use to describe work. In fact, I drag going to work everyday, don't feel like going to work. But hey! What do I know? One year has passed already, I just need to persevere for a little longer. I guess the only unbearable thing is people matter in the office. Lets hope people change, for better.
MFG case... no ending story for this year. Not even close. Suffice to say that I like him more by the day, but also occasionally got tired of him. Perhaps it takes time, more time. Or perhaps it's not time. Lets rest the case for new year celebration.
Joyous of all was the arrival of my little cutie niece. She's such a bundle of comfort, by just cuddling her in your arms, you will feel that all your worries and stress have been gotten rid of. May she grow up happily with loads of love.
Wishing all of us a better year ahead. :)
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Perhaps
I am feeling a bit sick. Have been feeling a bit sick since this morning. I would blame it to the poor air quality in the office, at my workstation in particular due to my neighbour polluting the air.
So feeling a bit vulnerable and sentimental. I felt like putting some facebook status that says...
"There may be this one that when you will tell me that you feel the same towards me too... but will I still feel the same when this one day finally arrives?"
So feeling a bit vulnerable and sentimental. I felt like putting some facebook status that says...
"There may be this one that when you will tell me that you feel the same towards me too... but will I still feel the same when this one day finally arrives?"
Monday, December 28, 2009
Spring Cleaning the Dreams
I've cleaned up my table at work. Not cleaned up, CLEANED up, but cleared a lot of stuff from the table and it's looking less congested and fresher. I will put a reminder to continue with the spring cleaning of the workstation this week, before the year ends. I wasn't the only one who did that, in fact, some of my colleagues did a much better job than me in terms of spring cleaning.
It's year end and people are starting to talk about 2010 new year resolutions... I had a few but I don't know if I achieved them because I can't even remember what was my 2009 resolutions. However, I remember two of my biggest dreams, which none has come true this year. Like LGM said, it takes time for dreams to come true.
Of course there are small little dreams here and there and some little dreams have come true now and then. For example my recent Christmas present :).
I've cleaned out quite a lot of them and binned them during spring cleaning, among them were bonus, promotion, Europe trip... I plan to keep my TeaRoom and MFG dream for now.
There have also been some cleaning of bad karma recently. The robbery case, I believe, was a form of getting rid of some bad karma, the Chinese saying "lose some money to avoid disasters" applies. My recent fall at my very own front door, I also believe, was a form of getting rid of yet more bad karma. In both cases, there were some degree of suffering but it's very mild compared with many other tragedy happening around the world everyday.
Looking forward to a better year ahead. Happy new year to all in advance.
It's year end and people are starting to talk about 2010 new year resolutions... I had a few but I don't know if I achieved them because I can't even remember what was my 2009 resolutions. However, I remember two of my biggest dreams, which none has come true this year. Like LGM said, it takes time for dreams to come true.
Of course there are small little dreams here and there and some little dreams have come true now and then. For example my recent Christmas present :).
I've cleaned out quite a lot of them and binned them during spring cleaning, among them were bonus, promotion, Europe trip... I plan to keep my TeaRoom and MFG dream for now.
There have also been some cleaning of bad karma recently. The robbery case, I believe, was a form of getting rid of some bad karma, the Chinese saying "lose some money to avoid disasters" applies. My recent fall at my very own front door, I also believe, was a form of getting rid of yet more bad karma. In both cases, there were some degree of suffering but it's very mild compared with many other tragedy happening around the world everyday.
Looking forward to a better year ahead. Happy new year to all in advance.
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