It's a strange feeling

I hate it when I fall sick.

Of course everyone hates suffering from sickness. I've often felt sick or unwell, but I mean it's not often I fall sick until I can convince myself to take sick leave. I was having fever last night and I didn't really know. Okay, I was feeling a bit sick, didn't have appetite and was a bit tired, but I didn't know I was having a temperature of 100 degree until doctor told me.

I was feeling okay this morning, but since doctor gave me the MC, and I was tired of work, I decided to call in for a day off.

I think it's the medication. It gave me this uncomfortable floating feel. Felt a bit empty, like having no goal at all in life. Didn't feel like I was up to any challenge and definitely will break down and cry if I were to face any failure right then. I vaguely remember the tonnes of work I had in the office and wished very hard that I never needed to go back to that office.

I also felt very "home sick" even though I'm at home. It's very hard to explain that feeling. I also missed someone so so much and I didn't have the strength to tell my heart to stop that. I wish MFG can miraculously appear and give me a big warm hug.

Sigh... I better not fall sick again.

I slept so much last night and today, I can foresee having insomnia tonight. Yup, I've stop taking the medicine since fever has gone. The medicine has gotten into my head. No good. :(

Glad I missed Monday, but now my Tuesday might be blue.