A Normal Day vs Abnormal Feelings

My Sunday

Woke up on time, had a glass of mango milk shake and went out with cousin to Gardens. We planned to watch Transformers. Okay, I know, MFG already warned me that I might not get ticket if I don't book my seats. But the thing was, cousin tried to book but the whole GSC on-line booking was not working, and GSC Signature is not in the list for phone booking. Told MFG finger crossed that not many people would want to pay double the price for the movie.

So I was wrong, which was half expected and half hopeful. So no tickets for the whole day unless until 11.55pm. Even gold class at 60 bucks per ticket was not available. Hmm... If I was staying just across Gardens, I would have bought the midnight show tickets and went back to watch the show, so what if I'm going to be sleeping at work the next day right!

But no... Since we don't stay across the mall, we bought tickets for ourselves for next Saturday instead. 6pm. Done! No more being disappointed for not being able to get tickets. I know I know, we could have gotten seats at the other bigger cinemas. Okay, I was lazy to go around. I normally have MC and BIL taking care of my movie tickets. Oh, and cousin bro went for this show on Friday! Should have known and gotten him to get us our tickets too. Humph...

Went for my comfort drink at Starbucks, browsed some books and bought two food magazines with recipes I like and need. (Something nagging me - If I really want to do TeaRoom anytime soon, I need to have the savoury items experimented and recipes confirmed. So I guess this is one of the reasons why God has arranged for mum to delay/ terminate my TeaRoom plan. I hope it's only for now. I'll get on with the savoury items, I promise.)

Went to the pet shop and surprisingly I got what I wanted. (I thought this was the day I don't get what I want because that nagging feeling in my head told me so)

Came home, no traffic, everything was fine.

(okay, this post is getting very long even before I get into that strange feeling of mine which I want to tell, maybe you skip this part and go straight to My Feelings part)

Came home, changed for some home yoga and before I started, I got a call from the customer who wanted to order the birthday cake for next Saturday. She said my price is expensive. I explained to her that her request for the figure 2 cake requires at least double the normal portion of cake, hence the increase in price. She sounded like she wanted to confirm the order. I am not quite sure, I better check with her again. I need to get started with her cake on Wednesday if she's serious about ordering. Meen has also confirmed her wedding cake order, pending confirmation of design, which she said she will email me last night but hasn't.

Did a half hour - 45 minute yoga. Sweat out a lot. Got a bit of headache maybe due to my attempts of the head stands (fail lah of course, couldn't even take both of my legs off the floor for even one second).

Dinner was okay. Had porridge which is one of my my favorite foods.

Decorated a cake, it's for my graphics designer as a present for designing my TeaRoom name cards. The name cards look great, she gave me two designs some more! I cannot make up my mind, I need minor changes and quickly send for printing. I suppose this might cheer me up.

It's getting late...

My Feelings

Very strange. It's hard to explain but I told MC (who's now in Australia with BIL, sent her off yesterday morning) that it's like the feeling of homesick. Okay, what kind of feeling is homesick? I AM at HOME!

It's like as though I'm in a place I'm so unfamiliar and I'm not going about with things the best way. It can't be just because I couldn't get tickets to Transformer, can it? I've got tickets for next Saturday what...

I'm kind of getting a nagging feeling of missing something really important, and that I'm lacking time in completing. I don't even know what it is. Could it be my TeaRoom savoury menu? But... TeaRoom is not on, at least not for now until Her Majesty My Mother allows me. Maybe she's gonna give me "permission" tomorrow?!

It's also like I'm losing something, someone... yeah, it's like losing MFG all over again kind of feeling. BUT, I've never had him and his file was supposed to be closed. Maybe there's something I didn't know.

Maybe because I'm not looking forward to my busy week ahead? It's quite tough and since I've already taken Wednesday half day and next wednesday full day, it's not good to take Friday off. Maybe I should't have taken the second order? I dont' think the price charged is actually worth my time honestly, but I'm not a celebrity baker who can charge high price. And customer already said I'm charging too high of a price... You think she's going to cancel her order? :p

Or, maybe I miss MC too much. I'm so used to having her around that not even cousin sis' company can help me. I still miss her even though I've just spoken to her on Skype an hour ago. Can it be this? But she was perviously away for 11 years what.

The feelings are also like this...

I feel like as though tomorrow is my first day at a new job; it's like going to school knowing that I didn't do my homework; it's like having left only RM10 and pay day is another 10 days away; it's like going back to work after 1 month's holiday; it's like as though I have to leave the country for overseas study; it's like knowing MFG doesn't like me and I'll never see him again; it also felt like I bought a two thousand ringgit handbag which I don't like AND I can't have it refund.

Very weird right???

Maybe it's hormone change. I was about to say maybe I'm thinking too much, but I can't even put my finger down onto what is it I'm thinking now... I have a huge piece of rock sitting on my stomach and a shadow over my head.

I actually feel much better now after typing all these. If you are still reading this, you are the most patient reader I've known!

Oh! It also feel like I'm having amnesia, there's a piece of information missing in my head.