Slowing down?

Last week felt like a breeze, passed by like without effort, I cannot even remember what happened last week... whereas this week, right now, I am feeling like the week is dragging. It's only Tuesday today :(

But something to be cheerful about is that MFG is finally coming back! It's strange, I don't see MFG all the time, but knowing that he's not in the country makes me miss him a lot. Although we still get to chat on line for a while, he's just so far away. There was this one day which I nearly forget about the time difference and that he'll be going to sleep soon so only managed to say "hi" before he went off... So he'd finally left for home again, and he said there's a present for me - NOT from him, from another friend over there.

I have been talking to a childhood friend of MFG lately, a very nice lady. My stomach always churned when she told me about olden days of MFG, as I have observed, MFG is a really caring friend, very willing to give, good heart and all... sigh. There was this one time where she told me to take care of her friend here (MFG) after she'd married off overseas. Sigh... if MFG allows me to do that... she said he just need someone to sit by him sometimes, have ice cream with him by the road side... so sweet. Told her I will try.

At work, it has reached this point where I feel like jumping off, abandoning the place. I'm not sure if the people there are living in their own illusion, or avoiding problems, or trying to fool us. And I hate to lie for the company, so when the boss said to hold payment of a certain supplier, I will tell the supplier "sorry, boss said to hold your cheque", I'm not going to give script that says oh, my boss is travelling and no one to sign your cheque, or oh, we've transferred the money maybe stuck at the bank... If the boss won't stop lying, at least I should stop helping him to tell lies. Anyways, it's not my company, so can I please just relax? Yes. I. Can.

On the other note, I am keeping up with my morning workout okay, but I am growing fat in the same time, I still cannot fit into my older pants, and the weight scale has been showing increasing reading. I am heavier than I've started my morning workout 3 weeks ago. I've cut down my dinner to oats and cereal. Perhaps I shouldn't be taking so much milk even though low fat milk? Switch to brown bread? Have fruit juice only? Arghhh... something is wrong with me. I used to be able to at least maintain my weight without a diet, the workout alone will be able to help me maintain the weight.

Okay, let me monitor me for another 3 weeks before I do anything drastic to "improve" the situation. Meanwhile, let me also try to have enough sleep and see how.