This week which is ending tomorrow was a week of many feelings.
I felt frustrated when I knew earlier this week that I had to travel to Singapore because it was rather last minute. I was included in the travelling plan only later because the big boss felt that I need to go to Singapore to conduct a training which total up to about 2 hours. Boy, I do feel so important! And he told me to look at how the market roll out for is done, which later he said he didn't say that he told me to do so. Okay, so just training, and perhaps additional training - which of course no one got to organize due to last minute.
Sigh. So tired of rolling my eyes.
This Singapore trip is the reason why I will have to miss the dinner which LGM is planning for next Wednesday. Still planning?
On Friday, I was flaming during an early morning discussion with the GM and appeared to be fiery TTB the whole day then after. Some times the senior management just like to execute their brilliant ideas last minute. Do they know that people "down there" had to run around like mad in order to support that brilliant idea in question? There is this management that I happen to know has certain high expectation on the efficiency of their staff BUT they so happened to also have implemented this system and SOP which restrict their staff to be able to deliver what the management wants instantly. Hey, there are forms to be filled out, data to be entered, documents to be sent to suppliers, information to be updated BEFORE our hands can actually be on the case physically. And who told us that we must use the system?
Sigh. So tired of the management's directions(sssss).
This morning I was between laughing and screaming at the supplier (who had called me on my non-working Saturday, but it's okay, he's being responsible) who told me the artwork I gave him was in a COMPLETELY different colour. Trust me, that's how he'd expressed that word, underlined, bold and loud. Haiyo, so I asked, what? Instead of green it is in... PINK??? He said no, just different shade of green. Arghhh... yes, your designer DO adjust the colour prior to printing to meet our colour tone. Thankyouverymuch for calling.
Sigh. Please lah stop exaggerating, I already have my big boss doing that, no need for anyone else to also do that.
Okay... to complete the mixture, I do have some happy notes. Vary Pasta was opened and I'd successfully went for lunch with LGM, BO was there "coincidentally" too just before we left the place. The food was okay, I was told the cabonara I ordered was one of the not so nice ones on the menu, but it was great having LGM there so that I had someone to complain to about work. My mid-week break.
And the other happy note was lunch with MFG was on too. A lunch that had given my feeling mixture a good mix of flavours... My lunch journey started off with me contemplating whether to invite my other colleague to come along. Hesitated till the last second before I left the office and I left alone. Then I was lost. Hmm... I couldn't find my way to the restaurant in 1U that he said we were meeting. And just when I was standing at the cross road (figure of speech) I got a text from him asking "are you lost?" haha... I was indeed! After some more direction in that text message, though it beats me how he knew I was lost, I still couldn't find. At last I got a call from him saying that he just saw me because I just walked passed him. Hey, how can that be? Ohh... apparently I walked passed him but I was one floor below him. Okay, don't ask.
So finally, lunch time! But I wasn't hungry, moreover, I was and have been having gastric. But doesn't matter what I eat or how my stomach felt, I could still strangely feel the butterflies that were fluttering in my stomach. Hey, it was just MFG who I've known for more than 2 years, what's with the butterflies?! And I can't even explain that occasionally long stare he gave me. Oh, one explanation - it was just my imagination.
Sigh. A sigh of relief that it's weekend, too bad Saturday is over now and I only have one more day before the torturous business trip commences. Let me first catch up with sleep...
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Congestion
Left home early for gym this morning but instead of arriving at 7.30am, I only reached gym at about 8.10am. Grrrr... there was a massive traffic congestion after the toll near my house area and that was 6.30am! Later found out that the jam was caused by some road work and 2 lanes were closed. Haiyo, for goodness sake, can't they stop the construction during peak hours?!
So I was at gym early this morning only to shower and get ready to work. Humph... Ohh... and managed a quick chat with Swee, which was a comfort after that so very annoying congestion. Totally spoilt my plan. I went back to the gym after work just now and joined an RPM class. Finally some satisfying workout. My dinner was 2 cups of fruit juice and some "sengkuang" what is this called in English again? Anyways, how come 2 cups so over right... I actually bought the drinks from the MBG fruit stall. There was another customer who ordered fruit juice also and he took mine. After one sip of the juice I told them it was a wrong one. They actually gave me a replacement, or I should say that they gave me another extra cup. Oh well, they actually have no use of the wrongly made (left behind) one so yeah, might as well let me drink that. So, I had 2 cups of juices :). And I really must commend the staff at MBG, they provide good customer service. They will recognize you and call you by your name - which are leng lui for me haha... and all other girls. I wonder if they address their regular guy customers as leng chai, must observe the next time I go.
I had this strange feeling this afternoon... I have been talking to him the whole day, and yesterday, and in fact almost everyday whenever we are on line, but just now I felt that I really really missed him. Is seeing the person a remedy towards this feeling?
Vary Pasta tomorrow!!
So I was at gym early this morning only to shower and get ready to work. Humph... Ohh... and managed a quick chat with Swee, which was a comfort after that so very annoying congestion. Totally spoilt my plan. I went back to the gym after work just now and joined an RPM class. Finally some satisfying workout. My dinner was 2 cups of fruit juice and some "sengkuang" what is this called in English again? Anyways, how come 2 cups so over right... I actually bought the drinks from the MBG fruit stall. There was another customer who ordered fruit juice also and he took mine. After one sip of the juice I told them it was a wrong one. They actually gave me a replacement, or I should say that they gave me another extra cup. Oh well, they actually have no use of the wrongly made (left behind) one so yeah, might as well let me drink that. So, I had 2 cups of juices :). And I really must commend the staff at MBG, they provide good customer service. They will recognize you and call you by your name - which are leng lui for me haha... and all other girls. I wonder if they address their regular guy customers as leng chai, must observe the next time I go.
I had this strange feeling this afternoon... I have been talking to him the whole day, and yesterday, and in fact almost everyday whenever we are on line, but just now I felt that I really really missed him. Is seeing the person a remedy towards this feeling?
Vary Pasta tomorrow!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
Motivation
Got called in for a motivational cum pre-review-review cum career planning talk last Friday with the big boss, other boss, and one GM... they said I am ready for my next move and would like me to take up new tasks, learn more things and move up. I will be monitored for 3 months and I am to show them that I can perform and I will then be joining the senior management team. There will be a lot of travelling to China and Singapore, and am the perfect candidate to handle these countries especially China because I can speak Mandarin. And about this new job scope, it's not about whether I can (they have no doubts that I can wor) it whether I want to or not.
Roll eye. Those who'd heard me for the pass two years know why.
PiC just asked if there's any progress... hmm... I don't know how is progress supposed to look like. I've met him for lunch last week, and the week before... maybe for the pass month, we've been meeting up about once a week for lunch. Occasionally with lamp post, but still were meeting. Just asked if I'm seeing him this week because there's some excuse erm... reasons to meet. We used to meet every Thursday but he suggested Wednesday this week.
Told him need to confirm first, I've planned to go to this pasta place (which we missed the last time) this Weds. Finally decided not to give up plans with LGM although she said meeting him is more important. No lah... pasta plan is on and on the other hand after finding out my lunch plan, he said maybe Thurs is okay. Haiyo... like that see how lah. To be confirmed tomorrow.
While I type this, BO said Vary Pasta not that nice. But I'm sure we are still going there right LGM...?
So back to progress... I really don't know. Things will just stay like how they are for now I think, there's nothing to motivate a change in relationship or any other arrangements.
Roll eye. Those who'd heard me for the pass two years know why.
PiC just asked if there's any progress... hmm... I don't know how is progress supposed to look like. I've met him for lunch last week, and the week before... maybe for the pass month, we've been meeting up about once a week for lunch. Occasionally with lamp post, but still were meeting. Just asked if I'm seeing him this week because there's some excuse erm... reasons to meet. We used to meet every Thursday but he suggested Wednesday this week.
Told him need to confirm first, I've planned to go to this pasta place (which we missed the last time) this Weds. Finally decided not to give up plans with LGM although she said meeting him is more important. No lah... pasta plan is on and on the other hand after finding out my lunch plan, he said maybe Thurs is okay. Haiyo... like that see how lah. To be confirmed tomorrow.
While I type this, BO said Vary Pasta not that nice. But I'm sure we are still going there right LGM...?
So back to progress... I really don't know. Things will just stay like how they are for now I think, there's nothing to motivate a change in relationship or any other arrangements.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Stupidity
To Brand & Marketing Manager:
You do NOT need the graphics designer to do scanning unless you do not know how to use the scanner/ photocopy machine. Ohh... I guess that must be the case.
You also do NOT need the graphics designer to add a LINE in the scanned picture for your power point presentation because you can well add that damn line yourself using the draw function in power point!! That is, unless if you are not good in power point. Ohh... I guess so again.
Finally, you do not need to raise your voice and use the DAMN word when your graphics designer confirm her scanning job task with because you suddenly realize that what you have just assigned was a very stupid task.
Actually, what I really wanted to tell you is that if you are not so clever, try not to give stupid instructions. Even if you really need to give stupid instructions, please don't talk so loud, it's a torture to the other intelligent people around you.
Yours truly,
TTB
You do NOT need the graphics designer to do scanning unless you do not know how to use the scanner/ photocopy machine. Ohh... I guess that must be the case.
You also do NOT need the graphics designer to add a LINE in the scanned picture for your power point presentation because you can well add that damn line yourself using the draw function in power point!! That is, unless if you are not good in power point. Ohh... I guess so again.
Finally, you do not need to raise your voice and use the DAMN word when your graphics designer confirm her scanning job task with because you suddenly realize that what you have just assigned was a very stupid task.
Actually, what I really wanted to tell you is that if you are not so clever, try not to give stupid instructions. Even if you really need to give stupid instructions, please don't talk so loud, it's a torture to the other intelligent people around you.
Yours truly,
TTB
Monday, October 26, 2009
Dependant
Today I received an email from "management", one of the executives directors, telling me that I should take up the role of logistics - the other day I was supposed to take up manufacturing, production etc role. That's not it, his reason is that he wants the SENIOR staff to be able to take over should there be any JUNIOR logistic/ production staff leaving the company. This is so called to avoid occurrence of current "situation". Totally pissed off after receiving the email.
What's wrong with that email?
First of all that email was directed to me ("Dear TTB"... so it HAS to be for me) and I am NOT senior staff, there is this Assistant General Manager who is much much more senior compared to Assistant Manager (that's me). Secondly, the production staff that just left was a MANAGER, not junior staff, and definitely not my junior. Lastly, this is the best preventive measure the company can come up with? So let people leave, we have the SENIOR staff to take care of the company? And this pissed me off also because this logistics task was originally agreed by all to be handled by assistant general manager..
Haha... they might suffer when I leave. Oh well, even so, I am sure they won't admit it, good luck to the company for getting new staff.
Admist all these grievance in the office, we had arranged for some activity to cheer ourselves up. A few of my colleagues have taken up the 7 days free trial at the gym, but so far they only went for 2 times and tomorrow is the last day (actually Wednesday but we have badminton on Wed). It is actually fun going to gym with a bunch of colleagues/ friends. Reminds me of those old days when I attended a whole list of classes with my gym mates. Today everyone FFK-ed, so instead of combat, I thought I'll do RPM. Plan was changed after I arrived really early at gym, but not early enough for the 6.3opm RPM, so I did half hour cardio, and then joined combat for 3 tracks.
Feeling very tired these days, cannot manage long hours at gym. Last Friday I was at The Curve, supposed to head down to KL for an appointment after showering at the gym (and at least 2 persons noticed that I ONLY went to shower, humph) but the appointment was cancelled, so I had dinner alone at Little Penang, and I sms-ed PiC to see if she could join me for a drink after her balance class. She did and we had a great time gossiping, she headed back to the midnight class while I had surrendered staying up any longer for the night. Took me great challenge to stay awake and drive home! I wish I have a driver, or I can teleport.
MC is already on MC (haha...) waiting to deliver her baby. :) Girl girl's birthday is going to be 30 October...
What's wrong with that email?
First of all that email was directed to me ("Dear TTB"... so it HAS to be for me) and I am NOT senior staff, there is this Assistant General Manager who is much much more senior compared to Assistant Manager (that's me). Secondly, the production staff that just left was a MANAGER, not junior staff, and definitely not my junior. Lastly, this is the best preventive measure the company can come up with? So let people leave, we have the SENIOR staff to take care of the company? And this pissed me off also because this logistics task was originally agreed by all to be handled by assistant general manager..
Haha... they might suffer when I leave. Oh well, even so, I am sure they won't admit it, good luck to the company for getting new staff.
Admist all these grievance in the office, we had arranged for some activity to cheer ourselves up. A few of my colleagues have taken up the 7 days free trial at the gym, but so far they only went for 2 times and tomorrow is the last day (actually Wednesday but we have badminton on Wed). It is actually fun going to gym with a bunch of colleagues/ friends. Reminds me of those old days when I attended a whole list of classes with my gym mates. Today everyone FFK-ed, so instead of combat, I thought I'll do RPM. Plan was changed after I arrived really early at gym, but not early enough for the 6.3opm RPM, so I did half hour cardio, and then joined combat for 3 tracks.
Feeling very tired these days, cannot manage long hours at gym. Last Friday I was at The Curve, supposed to head down to KL for an appointment after showering at the gym (and at least 2 persons noticed that I ONLY went to shower, humph) but the appointment was cancelled, so I had dinner alone at Little Penang, and I sms-ed PiC to see if she could join me for a drink after her balance class. She did and we had a great time gossiping, she headed back to the midnight class while I had surrendered staying up any longer for the night. Took me great challenge to stay awake and drive home! I wish I have a driver, or I can teleport.
MC is already on MC (haha...) waiting to deliver her baby. :) Girl girl's birthday is going to be 30 October...
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
No need
I'm not going to Singapore!
There is really no need to go all the way just to "organize" things. I wonder if that's the kind of instructions my former Production Manager got - go "organize" things. Exactly what needs to be organized? I asked the messenger (one of my colleagues who is acting like the company CEO) who conveyed the "go organize" things message to me what is the exact meaning or task break down of "organize" things, but she couldn't answer.
I just can't help feeling despair most of the time. Anyways, I have "organized" whatever I can for this Singapore task and I have decided and informed the management that there is no need for a trip. In fact, the things has been "organized" by my Production Manager before he left. There was really no need to lose a Production Manager over this so called "unorganized" things - as ACCUSED by the management!
I also just heard that the company is practising "back-up" system. This is where at least two persons in the company would know how to manage one same job task. So, in other words the company is worried that more people will leave and want to have at least another person in the company who can take over immediately. Is this a SOLUTION? Looks like retention is still not in the agenda of the management.
I shall see who's going to back me up because I am playing a role of THE back-up at the moment. Huh!
There is really no need to go all the way just to "organize" things. I wonder if that's the kind of instructions my former Production Manager got - go "organize" things. Exactly what needs to be organized? I asked the messenger (one of my colleagues who is acting like the company CEO) who conveyed the "go organize" things message to me what is the exact meaning or task break down of "organize" things, but she couldn't answer.
I just can't help feeling despair most of the time. Anyways, I have "organized" whatever I can for this Singapore task and I have decided and informed the management that there is no need for a trip. In fact, the things has been "organized" by my Production Manager before he left. There was really no need to lose a Production Manager over this so called "unorganized" things - as ACCUSED by the management!
I also just heard that the company is practising "back-up" system. This is where at least two persons in the company would know how to manage one same job task. So, in other words the company is worried that more people will leave and want to have at least another person in the company who can take over immediately. Is this a SOLUTION? Looks like retention is still not in the agenda of the management.
I shall see who's going to back me up because I am playing a role of THE back-up at the moment. Huh!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Handle with care
I have this mixed feelings towards life lately.
It looks like my TeaRoom dream is reachable for now, it good to have a focus in life, a focus on something I really really want. There is this something else which I wish to have, but I have been trying to brush off that longing all these while, hoping that my TeaRoom focus can distract me.
Have you experienced this before? You feel, think, that you can put aside your special feelings towards someone, that you and him are best mates and the arrangement is just fine. But there are days when you discover traces of feelings which indicates that the feelings has grown and not put to stop. So what do you do? Stop seeing this "friend" of yours? Does feelings stop growing by just not seeing, not hearing and has nothing to do with a person? Perhaps. Perhaps not.
Most of the time, things that seem so straight forward turn out to be the most complicated thing to handle. Often I feel so helpless till there is nothing else I can do but sigh. Big sigh. haiiiizz....
On the happier note, I'm still seeing my favorite guy from time to time, still chatting everyday, still getting a lot of support and encouragement from him. He's still a close friend, good listener, good consultant... Lets just handle this the way it has always been, for now.
It looks like my TeaRoom dream is reachable for now, it good to have a focus in life, a focus on something I really really want. There is this something else which I wish to have, but I have been trying to brush off that longing all these while, hoping that my TeaRoom focus can distract me.
Have you experienced this before? You feel, think, that you can put aside your special feelings towards someone, that you and him are best mates and the arrangement is just fine. But there are days when you discover traces of feelings which indicates that the feelings has grown and not put to stop. So what do you do? Stop seeing this "friend" of yours? Does feelings stop growing by just not seeing, not hearing and has nothing to do with a person? Perhaps. Perhaps not.
Most of the time, things that seem so straight forward turn out to be the most complicated thing to handle. Often I feel so helpless till there is nothing else I can do but sigh. Big sigh. haiiiizz....
On the happier note, I'm still seeing my favorite guy from time to time, still chatting everyday, still getting a lot of support and encouragement from him. He's still a close friend, good listener, good consultant... Lets just handle this the way it has always been, for now.
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