Strange feelings

I kept being asked if I'm proud of my achievement. I am supposed to be proud?

Yes, maybe I should, since it's nothing to be ashamed of, and to be fair to myself, the project has been quite successful so far. The response I heard so far has been very promising and exciting. Even Carebear has supported and another member-friend of mine also got herself one today. My Aunt said her knee pain is gone and would really want to continue.

But... why do I feel like sighing? Am I acting like a snob little b*t*h if I am just "okay" with the results? Am I not committed and "connected" to my job if I'm not jumping up and down with joy towards this "achievement"?

What's wrong with me?

I suspect this is my problem - my hard work is now rewarded with "fame"; my achievements are other people's profit. What might make my day, plaster a big smile on my face and make me squeal with excitement is "actual" reward. An increment, I'm sure, will brightened me up.

On the contrary, my feeling of being very touched and grateful, is so strong. All my friends believe in what I'm doing and have supported me through offering their time, money and many of them their blood. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH!

Now some of you must be wondering now what sort of "blood "business" I'm in. Mwah hahahaha...